Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Sorry to leave you in the dark...

December was a busy month.  Mark, the girls and I traveled to Chicago on 12/8/2014 and 12/22/2014. The Chicago Clinical Trial appeared to be working and I started the second month, then I had my last PET scan of the year. Today, we learned the cancer was growing. If we could not find a way to get ahead of the growth, I was told at best I would have six months to a year.

We looked at more Clinical Trials and found one at The Mayo. We chose a chemo that showed great results on liver tumors. The plan was to do 2 rounds of chemo (one dose per week for three weeks, then one week off) followed by another PET scan.

Thank you for all your Prayers and support. Thank you to the Angels that helped get us to Chicago and made our Christmas brighter.

Christmas 2014

Friday, December 5, 2014

Just Breathe and Pray

Since starting Lacitanib, I have been having increased pain at all the sites of my tumors. Dr. Laudi ordered additional pain meds which have been working well. Mark researched and found that increased pain may mean the drug is working! 

I close my eyes and imagine these tumors screaming out as they desperately try to maintain their existence in my body. Their growth factors- their food, so to speak- is cut off. They are not going without a fight. I am ready. I breathe in and breathe out. I feel empowered to be fighting on their terms, the field leveled. I have their attention. I hold my ground.

Close your eyes with me. Breathe in healing, hope, peace, love. Breathe out healing, hope, peace and love to share... Visualize these tumor cells letting go of their hold. See my body break them down- quickly, mercifully- and wash them away. 

Thank you for sharing my vision. I am grateful for you. 

*My next trip to Chicago with Mark and the girls will be on December 8. At this appt I will have the usual- pee and a BP- along with scans that will tell us if Lacitanib is working.